The Waiting Game
Tuesday, June 3rd, 2008Huh… It’s been some time since I’ve written. I was once again distracted by moving sounds and pix aka the tv - in particular AI- and of course, the boards. I admit to having an obsession with David Cook. The compulsion to watch him every night for at least an hour (i think, i spend an average of 2-3 hours just watching his videos) online is deleterious to one’s future career as nurse. Arrgh… I can’t help it. I’ve had one month of LOA to get my act together to prepare for the exams and I’ve used that time to meet up with friends, attend a concert, wedding, baptism, birthdays, etc… Really, it’s something else. If it’s not one thing, it’s another. So here I am a day after the exams, drowning in my new JAK and JD pocketbooks. I’m trying not to worry about the results. As they say, it’s all in God’s hands. Classmates have been getting superstitious texting all these prayer chains (you know, the ones that say text this to this number of people etc) — which I honestly just delete. These days I’d rather go to mass - shocker? Yeah, the faith has to be developed some more. In another day or so I’ll be going back to work to meet my new team. Thank God Joey is in it - I believe Jojo is too. Great, two former teammates=) I’m not so excited about going back but a girl needs to pay her bills. As my anxiety levels have increased the last few months, so have my shopping tendencies. Arrgh… Despite my lack of excitement for going back to work, I’d rather not twiddle my thumbs at home and be questioned by my parents. I’m thinking of taking the IELTS while waiting for the results. Yeah, I’ve got to work on paying for that too. Hopefully, the company doesn’t kick me out for lack of enthusiasm - Stats please stay up! Then there’s NCLEX and CG after the board results come out (of course, I’m thinking positive here). That’s the spirit— keep your eyes on the the future. I’m gonna miss school despite nearing burnout. I’ve managed to miss several reviews due to laziness or plain irritation over the absenteeism of reviewers or our pesky security system at OLFU. I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again. Science has never been my best subject. I feel this need to review anatomy & physiology, pharma & micro. I know the boards are over and there’s nothing I can do to take back some questionable answers… but this is just the first set. I’ll probably borrow Arlyn’s anatomy textbook once she’s done with her NCLEX;p hehe, you first… For now, I wanna chill. Gosh, I’d like to just relax for at least a month but again, there are the bills and that promise of going back to work. Can’t break my good word to management who’s been so supportive despite my dipping stats. I’m thinking of popping in later to check out how my teammates are doing or just go to sleep and be surprised when I come back Thursday. There’s also the gym. My flabs are killing me… Got to get myself toned;p It’s a pity that I’m no longer excited at the idea of going to the beach. I’ll give myself time to save for that too… Worries, doubts, fears… they seem to crop up every time I think about that darn exam. Positive - think positive- that’s the secret. Law of attraction it is. With that line of thought, I’ll see you, OLFU friends, at the victory party after a few months… Ciao!!!
