Life Under Construction

Let me just make a brief commentary before I start on the topic at hand.  It’s re my professor Sir Abanto and that darn reflection paper he had classmate Francis read to us.  Could I just say na pasaway ang estudyanteng nagsulat nung reflection paper?  Ok, so Sir does have the tendency to just read the acetate, cuss and tell stories that might seem unrelated and very much about him BUT that’s his teaching style.  I have to agree that the writer of the paper was pretty arrogant and hasn’t really had much exposure to the real world if she thinks she can get away with it. Based on working experience, you might hate your boss BUT you don’t kick dirt on his face UNLESS you’re resigning…. kahit na nga magresign ka kasi patay ka sa referrals.  Naawa naman ako sa kanya… May pagka-engerts din kasi ang babae.  Sinabi nang reflection paper!  Just answer the darn question and be done with it… If you really have brains;p 

Back to the topic at hand.  I’ve been getting stressed out and confused because of muse.  This time he’s not amusing anymore.  Sheesh, it’s getting serious.  Problem with live muses is they have a mind of their own.  Why can’t they just sit back and let you just say hi/heller?!  This is the problem with commitment phobes.  I have to admit I hate torpedoes dahil torpe din ako;p  What can I say?  I’m a free spirit… a wannabe wanderer.  I have this friend who’s my exact opposite… She immediately got herself chained to a commitment.  Now she’s analyzing if it’s worth it.  In my case, I haven’t gone within the 50-mile radius yet…and I’m getting the jitters already.  Maybe it’s because I’m used to being independent and alone.  Not really lonely — that’s what my girlfriends are for=)  I just got caught off-guard…  There’s a point when you just have to resurrect barriers and make a stand… We’re friends period… No, I didn’t take vows hehehe… I just think that a commitment is somewhere in the faraway future.  I’m still young right?  I have places to go, people to meet… that whole thingamajig=) Ang nakakatakot lang dito e pano kung ito na yun?  I really doubt it.  But I can’t help thinking it - especially when I’m assessing my status in the human development ladder.  According to Tickle.com, I am a Social Idealist… which reminds me of that line… ‘People alone may go very fast - but not very far’  Darn, why does this have to happen right before midterms?  What is working under stress?!  Hay, don’t I just love it?  Sweet Lemons, bow.

I’ve been meaning to write for some time now….  My last blog ‘Wagi’ was supposed to come out 3 wks earlier but something always came up…  If I wasnt busy, I wasnt feeling up to it.  I’m finding out that writing journals also requires a state of mind…  Funny how little scenarios from riding on a jeep/bus, serving in Community and in the classroom make me want to write.  As in, I want to write it all down on paper.  Maybe I should get one of those mini-recorders.   Hehehe… so for this blog,  i’m playing catch up with what’s been happening since Prelims results. 
I’ve gone and finished my Community  stint  at Iba Health Center in Meycauayan, Bulacan.  For 6 days, group C has been serving by taking vital signs, immunizing (yes, I made two little babies suffer;p) and teaching mother’s class (why is it that everytime I go shopping, I go overboard?  even for kiddie snacks and souvenirs?!).  It’s been fun despite the inclement weather which only got worse day-by-day.  Imagine, getting stuck on an island shed for an hour & a half in the middle of heavy rain.  Buti na lang dala ko ang digicam ni roj para photo op muna kami;p  We also had fun with the many food options around the corner - the Cuevas bakeshop is a favorite stopover.  Hindi awardwinning pero ok na yung eggpie nila;p  Fabella’s next, wish us luck!

Work.  I’m in Team Tart.  Our new batch doesn’t have an official name yet.  Perhaps when everybody’s good and ready discuss it, we’ll go ahead.  Ako, as usual, matigas ang ulo.  My kept% is a sunken ship after I just got it resurrected in Inbound - basta important stat siya sa department namin. Tapos, nakakatulog pa ako especially during Friday shift… Sabay pinapalo ng mga TL/AMO na dumadaan. Sheeks, buti gising ako kapag nandyan si boss… Kundi, i might be seeing a cite form soon.. sheesh, wag naman po!  All in all, I think I’m adjusting pretty well.  In the first place, I wasnt so against it.  And I like my teammates.  Makulit si Joey… which I like, despite my long-suffering-sleepless look hehehe… Akala ko matataray yung mga lalaki namin. Hindi rin pala, tahimik lang;p  Eventually, not-so-quiet after all.  Kainan lang pala ang katapat.  Potluck is a nice idea to loosen everyone up.  I brought tomato meat sauce spaghetti.  Mama cooked, I directed… yeah, right!  Feeling kasi ni mama, sobrang pagod ko na from school kaya siya na lang ang magtitimpla.  Eh, gising pa rin naman akong naggagayat at nag-aabot ng ingredients=P go figure… but thanks Ma=)

Si muse naman nakakatukso, nakakagulo at nakakaaliw…  Anyway, that’s what he’s there for.  Harmless living creature not allowed to bite hahaha.. as if he wants to. Yeah, once in a while I have to mention him para balanced ang lahat, di ba?

So there goes my next set of hurdles=)  I can’t believe Midterms is gonna be in 2 weeks! Kakaiba ang bilis ng panahon.  Parang nung isang blog ko lang kinukuwento ang Prelims.  Good luck sa ‘ting lahat;p

Hahaha, I passed ALL my prelims!! Ang saya-saya=)  My joy at passing is twice the regular kind because of several reasons.  Of course, I have to enumerate…  Paki niyo, blog ko ‘to hehehe… I work — regular hours - 9 including lunch.  Sleep has been more or less cut in half.  I’m gaining weight - lack of gym visits…  Parati kasi akong bumabawi kapag nasosobrahan sa kain.  I worry a lot about being able to juggle work - translate: wrinkles, wrinkles… eyebags, eyebags!   No social life, no beauty - what else has this lola to hold on to?  Turns out a lot=)  That’s why other than pagbubuhat ng sariling bangko, this blog is dedicated to those who’ve helped lighten the load for the last two months.  Mama.  Ito ang super mama.  Hatid-sundo sa pickup points=)  Ang aking bangayan - my family…  They’re my life-size stressballs.  Buti na lang I don’t squeeze the life out of them sa pagtataray ko.   Rojan, peace!  LM as always is ka-chika galore - we’re more barkada now than before…  Hay, she’s moving up the development ladder while I’m having fixations;p  My drivers: Don, Roj, Ma & Pa.  Ang dami nila hehehe… My friends who are also oh-so-busy squeeze in their time or at least have patience to wait for me - Larsky, Pia, Ing, Fe, Tin among others…  Of course, God - Let me just say that it is so right to put everything in His hands.  He’ll always have plans better than anything I can cook up.  Despite my laziness, He manages to just bring me where I have to be.  Damn! the sweat, the tears - talk about mental stress… Anyway, He managed to drive it all away… especially with the way I got the results=)

I must say nakakalaki ng ulo ito;p  With admu, you dont get appreciated this much for passing.  But I was a professional student back then.. I think everyone was.  I’m praying for better results this midterms.  Kakayod ulit ako - more, kung kakayanin… ‘Coz I know, what happened to me was a wake up call to many — in the same way, other students managed to survive in even more difficult circumstances — and i took inspiration from them as well.  Hmm… why don’t we all just inspire ourselves? Instead of irritating the heck out of each other… hehehe…