Life Under Construction

I’ve just gone thru my first hospital duty which was pretty uneventful except for the stormy weather I had to go thru to get to Monumento.  Pagamutan is in Malabon.  Duty 11pm-7am.  Unfortunately, didnt get any sleep during the day so, as usual, bangag ang lola niyo.  Since we havent gone thru an orientation yet and the one who’s supposed to give it will be in 9am the next day.  We’d have to wait for the dude.  We did an orientation with Mrs. Norma Garcia (very nice lady) for say an hour then it was free time. She told us she’d wake us up if there was a delivery patient.  Buti wala at pinatulog lang kami, hehehe… So there goes my first duty. 

Continuation 7/26/06, Wed, Mla time

As I’ve written in my previous blog, I was very apprehensive about not going to my Wednesday hospital duty.  Work is still a priority.  And I didnt like the idea of pleading with Mr. Vasquez…  But as luck would have it,  this particular storm drove in a blessing. School was cancelled for Monday.  That meant I could cancel my Monday leave and stick it to Wednesday - if my superiors allowed.  I didnt really care whether or not they did - to be honest.  But it would really help my peace of mind that they do.  Edsel got frustrated over not being told re the change sooner.  What can I do?  They just dismissed classes the very same day.  So, he declined my request for Wed VL since I didnt stick to our agreement. Buti na lang mabait itong si Marlon (our SAMO trainor) at pinayagan pa rin ako to go thru with Wed VL. Last night,  I was studying for my last day of prelims which was today.  I even prayed to God that there would be classes so I don’t have to do makeup.  However, Papa told me they just announced that classes were cancelled for today over TV Patrol. So, ok, at least I’ll have some rest right?  I went thru last night’s training at ease.  Even explained to Marlon that I wont go thru with the VL.  When I got back home early today, Ma insisted I check w/ Fatima.  Lo and behold my previous prayer was answered - exams and duty resume.  Jeez, talk about being careful of what you wish for.  Now, I’m here just outside school- done with prelims finally.  Waiting for my 11pm duty.  Texted Marlon about not going to training.  Haay, I must be spinning a lot of heads with my ever-changing sked. That’s life, I guess=) 

New Sked.  The good thing about Outbound is that I can pick a weekday off sked without getting jealy about other people’s skeds.  Kasi ala talagang weekend off sa Outbound, hehehe… so patas lang.  Sked’s Tue-Wed off - great for my hospital duties.  Now, I only need to request for Monday VLs.  Hay, at peace again.  I hope this lasts a lot longer than before;p

That’s it.  I’m leaving Inbound Collections.  Here’s to a new life in Outbound;p Yes, my plea to stay in Inbound was not approved but I’m supposedly offered a good package in Outbound. We’ll see…. Anyway, I’ve been unable to sleep thinking about what MO was going to decide and now here it is. Accept it or leave…  Here I am with my scales again trying to figure out what to do.  I don’t want to stop working - money, money, money… aargh!  And I’m definitely finishing Nursing. The way it works out is they’re allowing me a day off from work because of hospital duty.  I have to sacrifice one duty night — meaning a makeup of three days that will cost me P300/day.  Jeez, I wanna scream just thinking about it. But, there’s still hope. I need to speak with Sir Vasquez and plead once again. I’ve never been good with pleading— humility… haaay naku, Lord help me!

That does it for the ranting … on to something lighter;p  I’ve just gone through capping and pinning last Thursday.  Sayang, di ko dala yung digicam ni Roj pero ok lang. I brought Ma and Pa along.  And che-deng, my dakilang PA hehehe… Tin=)  I remember that we were only supposed to bring one parent along - pero baka magtampo ang tatay ko.  Next thing I know, Tin asks me if I’d like her to tag along… Why not? Buti na lang din kundi di kakayinin ng lola niyo ito.  Went thru the whole lector and ceremony bit w/ shoes a size smaller.  There was a mixup during the pickup… pero ok naman=)  Special thanks to Shawie, my classmate!  Naks, parang tv show host hehehe…  Regular photo op for capping and pinning.  And before I forget, let’s give it up for PA Tin for my makeup (especially the eyebrow tweezing— swear, mine are bushes hehehe) and photos.  Yeah, I looked good=)  Buti na lang - at least prepared for what I was about to see.  My muse holding hands down the isle with his girlfriend — nyek!  They make quite a couple.  Iba-iba talaga ang trip ng tao.   Yun lang ang masasabi ko.  hehehe, what is bitter-bitteran?  nah, I’m not heartbroken - just a bit jealy i have to admit…  Gotta work, no time for love…  Sabi nga ng malalapit sa akin, it will come when it comes… When?!  Haha, I can hear Tin coming up with an action plan…  Aggressive and assumptive - what is a collector?!   Uh, what else?  Uh-huh, I cooked another batch of tuna carbonara for my team and previous teammates last night… I’m not sure if AMO Edsel actually tasted it but at least it was there to eat;p  Mukhang mabenta naman so success again hehehe…  Yah man, my last day in Inbound.  Si Edsel pa talaga ang nag-goodbye sa akin - buti di ako umiyak.  Not that I easily cry but the weight of another change is really getting on my nerves. 

So, last day at Inbound ends and we go back to school life.  It was my first day of prelims earlier.  It got off to a bad start when I mixed up the sked of my first exam.  I studied for Skills Lab only to find that the test was Human Development.  So much for my big brains…. I swear to make up in Midterms, promise talaga!  Human Behavior was a headache - I’m thinking minadali yung paggawa ng test kaya siguro di na-edit ng mabuti.  We ended up redoing questions number after number… you get the picture. Hay, it was supposed to be my easiest test.  Being a psych grad and all… Shouldnt have relied on that too much.  At least, Skills Lab was done okay. I dont think I’ll get top score but at least the test was clear from the get-go.   Day at Fatima ends with meeting groupmates to discuss how we’ll meet tomorrow - first hospital duty itech!  What to wear, what to do with the scrub suit, lab gown, scrub shoes…    I guess, this is what life is meant to be - one adventure after another…  But, as with any other adventure, this heroine also needs to rest every couple of days at least hehehe…  Finally, sleep! Ta-ta, VAVOOM!

Last Wednesday on my way to school, strong winds & rain greet me at the EDSA LRT station.  Great… Then I was hoping that they’d actually cancel class but no… Well, actually they do but it was too late - jeez, I was home by 3pm.  Despite the fact I was late for a long quiz, I found comfort at the fact that ma’am V waited a bit.  hehehe,  I got an ‘award’ but it was ok.  Cinderella strikes again=) Mixed feelings at having classes cancelled last Thursday… Mostly happy because I could go to the gym - di nga lang natuloy since LM came home.  Of course, sister first;p Room is a mess so I tried to clear a little space.  Cleaning is therapeutic… Here I was thinking that the storm has already passed when I get an unpleasant surprise at the office.  I’m getting moved to Outbound!  Aargh!!!  My precious sked sniff, sniff…. Just when I was getting relaxed at my station, God decides to rock my life a little.  Here we go again with negotiating.  I hope MO C gives me a go signal again.  Lightning doesnt strike twice but we’ll give it a go… Jeez, I hate pleading.  Right now, I’d rather not think of taking a LOA - my budget!  O rain, rain go away…  So, we’ll see how things work out tonight.  If anyone’s reading this, cross your fingers for me… better yet, pray that i dont have to let go of work;p  Tomorrow will be another waiting-in-line scenario — tuition fee, capping fee and the like.  Then, a makeup class in the afternoon.  So between now and tomorrow, I will most probably get 2 hours of sleep.  Not that I’m not used to it.  I’m just praying for a dose of inspiration to keep me awake;p  Hay, the psychology of staying positive—- Lord, give me strength and a smile=) 

Kay tagal-tagal ng paghihintay at isa nanamang pagkakamali hehehe… I have found another imperfect muse. Why do I need inspiration?  Because I’m human=)  No use going around it. This time it’s a bohemian masquerading as a preppie. An artist with the form of the local macho siga.  Yes, folks, I think I’ve found another paradox… I know, I know, we all have different sides that we try to balance, but this one just got me fascinated. It’s one of those temporary afflictions that will probably last a couple of months… although I’ve been known to keep these minor distractions up to four years.  Hi, D! Hehehe… Hey, I’m not a kid anymore, but it certainly helps to have one once in a while despite my mongha existence.   It keeps that smile up on your face, the twinkle in your eyes and despite the inclement weather, makes you wanna go … wherever he is.   The natural femme inclination is to fix one’s self.  Here I was thinking that between school and work, I don’t have time to look like a human being.  Haha, guess again.  Bumabalik ng gym ang lola nyo!  Anyway, blood type Os are naturally active - yeah, right!  And that concealer -   What wonders has God created=)  So it looks like a full life again.  Makes one less lonely.   The importance of the muse.  Hmm, crush seems so … highschool;p  Where did that originate anyway?  Better check google … Why imperfect?  Because he’s human - therefore, complicated… With my history, i doubt it if the simple would do=)

It’s been 3 weeks of hectic life.  I think I’ve gotten over the first hump of depression that usually accompanies a change of lifestyle.  Just to get over it, I watched ‘Superman Returns’ and cut a portion of my class… wow, kakabalik ko pa lang ng school - pasaway na ako hehehe…  Hmm, just loved Brandon Routh.  I keep watching his interview w/ Letterman and can’t help but wonder if this guy’s for real.  With a dose of inspiration or conscience,  I went back to school refreshed.  A bunch of lectures, return-demos and quizzes — adjusted once again.  Can’t wait for duty time.  I think that’s where the real test starts.  I can’t wait to catch my first baby.  I’ll probably cry;p   I hope to get past the bloody show though.  Prelims will be coming in another week.  Capping also.  Phew, just like a graduation ceremony… Sorry, but I find the event a bit comedic - farce would be too much.  It’s just so traditional & provincial the way it’s being handled.  Wrong lyrics on the song sheets (the students don’t care or notice for that matter). The moneyed/popular students getting picked for roles.  And the Philippine Idol auditions for song leaders.  Wag kayo, isa ako sa mga nag-audition hehehe… Of course, plus 5 kaya yun;p  I’m laughing through it because I’d rather not think that I’m wasting my time not sleeping just to attend 2 hours of practice.  Even volunteered to be lector at mass to avoid lengthening the practice with cajoling from other students and listening to another set of auditions that will have me cringing and screaming - wrong pronunciation!  Sorry, the critic in me can’t be vanquished.  Dont get me wrong - I like being in school.  Actually enjoy the camaraderie of students - new chums whose lives are so interesting.  I’ve always loved learning about people.  It does help that there are a couple of attractive distractions;p  One particular dude is keeping me on my toes but it’s getting tiresome.   I didnt go to school to beautify myself. what a word!  Perhaps, God is just reminding me that I’m still human - having heterosexual inclinations.   Nevermind that I’ve kept them at bay for too long- Aargh!  So I’m making the most of my time, cramming time with friends, family, school, work and me time.  Me time is usually on the computer doing this.  Don’t have the energy to cook and go to the gym so this is my last resort.   Now, my bed is calling me home.  Sabay hikab at tulog nanaman tayo…  Ta-ta, VAVOOM!